The interview at Enham

I'm apprehensive about resident disability centres, somewhere squashed in to my gnarly little soul is the congealing principle that disabled people have the same right to education, jobs and training in the same systems that everyone else use.

After we talked about what the course entails, a sea change in my thinking occurred about residential centres, there seems to be an understanding that because my literacy issues are linked to my cerebral palsy, they would not improve naturally by themselves, that I would need to develop stronger strategies to manage the difficulties that I have especially when applying for jobs.

I had a bit of a grizzle walking back to the car It was the first-time in 10 years where I haven't had to justify , defend or even prove I had a disability. And that in itself is the best reason for doing the course at Enham, even without my interest in 3-D work

CAD will be a good bridge between the skills I already have

it's important for me to do something to prove to myself that I still have talent, for some time I’ve been feeling out of my depth and in limbo

it's probably the best chance to improve my systems I have for my paperwork

How I haven't had support for one month

The initial meeting to update my CV and covering letter was on (4th April 2012 @ 2.30) this was changed to (24 April 2012 @15.45) because of a Orthotic appointment I had, the same day, however the times did not clash,,and I thought it polite to inform that I might be in a bit of a rush, however they wrote back with an appointment on the 24th this has sorted the issue, but it means that I have not had any support in a month!

how this makes me feel
the thing that I want to be able to develop is a more independent way of dealing with everyday job finding e.g. CV's and job applications, there is no easy answer if there was I would have found it myself by now. until I am able to develop a independent way of coping with these things I am restrained by the amount of time people can give me. I haven't been idle however it is incredibly difficult to live up to my jobseekers agreement without support. And that makes me feel despondent with the process,

Things that I can do!

• I've been looking for jobs, but it is just lip service because there is no support for filling in the application, but it will be a good test for the new diary.
• The letter from Enham about the CAD course came, and I have an interview with them on the 12 of April.
• working out what I can do with the new computer, I am gradually getting the accuracy with the dictation software and it was a pleasant surprise when my screen reader worked directly from Microsoft Word this should make my life a little easier.
• I so I can finish the outstanding paperwork that I have with a4e.